My folks say I am the biggest demotivator they could have found in their life.
I know I am not given to using fabulous, awesome blah blah at the drop of the hat.
So people have made them much maligned word. For them any work well done is splendid, anything worth mentioning is awesome and so on.
Oh let me mention that special one, my lil sis , she is the one who always whines that I keep her on tenterhooks. I expect more than she could even think of delivering and that makes her go into hiding and avoid me perhaps. Well what to say of that? I guess I expect a lot from people I like, I always want them to grow and grab whatever they want. I have my own dreams and I want them to be realized too .yeah few of them have been shattered and many of them was realized royally. Highs and downs well are part of any life and no one needs to tell me ‘Mate, chill out, take it in stride” I do take them as they come. No one pushed me too hard really and if I like someone I‘ll push that one to achieve something what that one really yearns for because he or she is worth it.
I am fussy about people. Not that I can’t manage a smile for those whom I want to avoid but to be candid I am bad at faking emotions. I have acted much in schools but this art has yet to be mastered by me. Those who know me vouch for it and I lie bare to them.
But then that is the beauty of any friendship any relationship where you can be yourself where you don’t need to act where you get away even when you blew off lid because you know those people know you. Acting day in day out is a tough job, oh it is so tough to say “you were fabulous” when you feel like saying haven’t seen more crappy one around.
Haan polished people, world is full of them, who pretend as your friends and then backbite.
Thanks to all of those, with whom pretensions don’t work. Losing self is the biggest one can ever lose. I don’t want to lose any. Leave the old world, welcome to the new world.
Old stays shattered and world conspires to bring good things. Where am I heading to??
I know it very well, but you feel bogged down when you find some old equations turning sour.. Life surges ahead like a frolicking river………….
